small favors

dear sam. i loveeeeeeeee youuuu. :) you make me smile. even though it feels like we hardly ever talk anymore and i miss you :(

sooo. kyra called earlier. and.. i dunno. i've been really lonely lately. and i haven't talked to her in 3 months so we talked. about life and her boyfriend and my lack thereof.

and it was nice.

then we started talking about how things used to be and how we finally, FINALLY got over everything we did to each other.

and then she told me she still loves me. :\

i mean, i love her. i have to love her. it's like second nature to me to love her.

i dunno.

i hate how i do this. i lead people on and i let them start to like me and get their hopes up and i really just like one person and it isn't any of them. like whatthehell i just realized how many people i'm doing that to right now. i did this a year ago when i wasn't over kyra to kaitlyn and dylan and dan and amanda and i'm doing it again now to kyra and leo and vincent and amber uhg.

god.

love sucks.

the end. :)

ps. i want a hug.