happy maggie (:

hellooo amazing worldd (:

haha no the good mood isn't because of kayla.

okay partly. because she makes me smile and all that mushy sappy stuff.

but i'm actually in a good mood. have been. it's nice. (: haha i love how a week ago i was like 'kyraaa :'(' and now im like leave me alonee you missed your chance. good old me. back to moving on in like a week. i like it this way.

haha soo saturday was cute and stuff. (:

yeah i'm happy. weird i know. (:

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hello world. i just got home from the city. i spent the night in a certain kyra's hotel and somehow her dad didn't wake up/notice me. :D

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lmao. i'm never going to see central park the same way again.

omg so tired. i'm gonna sleep and then i'm going back to the city and yeah. (:

byeeeee world <3

new years resolutions

six months late haha

-okayy i'm a size 00 again. let's keep it that way
-i haven't thrown up in 6 days. i haven't gone on a planned binge/purge in 2 months. let's keep it that way
-i'm not going to blow off my friends for my girlfriend. D:<
-i need to know that i'm capable of being in a relationship that doesn't turn into the most important thing in my life
-i'm not going to keep blowing off plans because i feel fat.
-i'm not going to say i'm gonna stop drinking because let's be realistic. but i really should act like a normal girl and cry when i'm sad or something goes wrong instead of drowning myself in alcohol.
-just because i don't like anybody right now doesn't mean i need to be lonely.

most of those are hardly resolutions. but oh well.

sooooo. i'm going out in like half an hour. haha at midnight how safe. and i'm going to the city tomorroww (: andd. idk about the rest of my weekend yet
but yeahh.
i'm actually in a pretty good mood. still. hm.

it's nice. i like it.

hellooo world (:

oh my goddd i've been in such a good mood the last few days (: except friday night/saturday morning that was like awful lmfao. i had like the worst panic attack ive had since like.. last year and i was like shaking and hyperventilating and crying but then i didn't even know why so i stopped. and then i passed out on my bathroom floor.. LMFAO.

ooo so the sat wasn't bad at all. haha it was just long and i finished all the sections early so i was like "OHMAGODSOBOREDWANTACIGARETTE"

anddd my nose doesn't hurt anymore yayy :D but i woke up with blood like all over my face this morning wtf?

omg im finally gonna get my ears pierced. haha i was more scared to get my ears pierced than my nose how stupid am i?

lmfao@me maya and kaitlyn last night funniest shit ever.

OH MA GAD I MISS JESSE HE NEEDS TO GET HIS LICENSE ALREADY D:< haha (:

i'm back down to like.. 89-92 pounds so i feel sooo much better about myself lmao

so pretty much life is good. :D the end

here we go again

sooo. the usual. blahblahblah threw up blah blah blah poor me blah blah blah self pity.

i was talking to this girl earlier and apparently she lives right around here. she went to four winds and presbrytarian and valhalla and everything. borderline, depression, bulimia.. all that jazz. she's a couple of years older than me. and i've known her for like, 12 hours. but she actually said something that got to me.

"Get yourself together, I've missed out on my life because of all of this, it isn't worth it." :\

idkk. i'm just crazy and sleep deprived. i forgot to take those sleeping pill things.. lmao oops.

lol@me

oh well. i'll be okay.

well this is odd

sooo my mood swings are getting really out of control :| it's like one minute i'm all yay life and then i'm like WAH POOR ME and then i'm like ooo food and then i'm all SO FAT CAN'T EAT HNNNNNN and then i'm like life sucks again

except moreso. lmao

idkk i cant sleep either and then it makes everything worse and sleeping meds aren't helping

it sucks

ANYWAYYYYY so i'm taking the sat in like 2 days and i'm gonna fucking die omg

andd i need a girlfriend LMFAO i'm pathetic but yeah

because now i'm over you

and now i'm lonely D:<

ohhh welll life is goooddd :)

blahblahblah

soo i deleted that last blog because it was too emo even for me.

welll i finally got some sleep last night and ive been in a good mood all dayy :D

jeezzz thank god i feel like i'm finally normaling out again. normaling isn't even a word. emo doesn't suit me.

hmm. so i'm (attempting) avoiding you. except i think you're mad at me so it's k lol but im like almost over you. it's about fucking time lol

YAYYY IT'S JUNE

HOLY SHIT I HAVE THE SATS NEXT WEEK FML

kill me

LOL SO MY LAPTOP CHARGER LIKE, MELTED WTF?

anddd im finally getting my fucking nose pierced yayyyy

okayyy i'm done im gonna go be happy :)