lskghalkh rawrrr :)

my stomach hurtsss, :(

it's liz's birthdayy. :D i actually called her. cause i'm cool like that. and it's like. whoa. i haven't heard her voice in 6+ months.

don't worry i'm not gonna get all mopey and "wah i miss her" but it's like whoa six months is a long time.

ahaha.

ohhh so me and kaitlyn sorta found out who kaitlyn's dad is. he works at the gas station we buy cigarettes from when the convenience store won't. we've buying cigarettes from her dad for the last god knows how many weeks.

it's crazy.

ohh so i went all.. rawr on life last night. i dunno. i guess i'm kind of on the edge of having another mini emotional breakdown. the last time i had one of those was last year and i ended up in a couple of different mental hospitals.

maybe it's what i need though. i dunno.

OHH AND OMG I FOUND THIS DIARY I KEPT IN 6TH-7TH GRADE LAST NIGHT.

well diaries. there's like 6 notebooks of them. yes i used to keep one. bite me.

it's just kinda crazy to read all this stuff. like it feels like it was forever that i hated myself for being gay but it was only a couple of weeks. and it felt like it took forever for me to start thinking that i was like a full on lesbian instead of being bi but it was only a monthish.

anddd. i spent like 3 hours calling colleges earlier. all of them will take me with a ged and a year of community college. i don't even have to take the SAT's.

so there goes my last chance of going to high school. and new paltz is out. i need 45 credits to transfer in there and i'm not spending 2 years at wcc. oh well. it wasn't like my dream school or anything.

it looks like most of them (UBC pratt, york, blah blah blah) just want 24 credits and a 2.6 gpa. university of iowa wants 24 credits, 2.59 gpa and a 540 ged. which shouldn't be too hard-my gpa from the high school classes i took in 7th/8th grade was like a 3.7 or a 3.8 or something.

:\ i guess i should start working on a portfolio.

sigh.