she makes me smile. she gets me. she's been through the eating disorders and depression and anxiety and she knows all the right things to say. she's really amazing.
shit. so this has gone from a spark of interest like a year ago to ignoring it to meaningless almost sex to a tiny crush to.. this.
i mean she isn't straight.. but i dunno how far "open" extends. it's weird. because it's not so much that i want sex or even a relationship, i just feel so normal around her. except that's not the right word.
uhggg. this is ridiculous but i really don't care because it's not like i'm going to act on this unless she gives me a reason to.
she has the cutest freckles on her nose and she kissed me again tonight while we were laying in the grass and looking at the stars and pretty much telling each other our life stories. she told me how amazing and smart and gorgeous she thinks i am and that she thinks i have the prettiest eyes and i never remember things like that but i remember every word.
okay i sound like a creep. whateverrr. this is just so weird coming from me.
we got in one of those cute coupleish arguments where she's like "you're hot" and i'm like no you are.
i need to stop. i'm gonna stop now i promise haha
sooo i got a job at the library :DD andand i make $8 an hour which is okay and i work 4 days a week to start.. which is like reallyy good for the library. usually they start you at like 2 hours a week and i got 8 :D
lmao, shut up, it's a start. i need money. and jason works at the library! <33 omg yay i'm hanging out with him on sunday.. i miss him so much. he was at camp for forever and then i was in north carolina ): blah.
23 days until kansas. i should be more excited but i'm not. we'll see what happens i guess.
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